Thursday, June 29

An Island

I have come to a realization over the past couple of days. Over the years, my “friends” list has dwindled down as I became more and more involved with my family. Now I feel like my family list is growing shorter by the day! I’ve been living in the US for over 13 years now. With each year, I feel like my tie with the extended family has been wearing out. With my grandmother’s death, I all of a sudden realized the number of people that really, really care about me, that would call 911 if they don’t hear from me on a regular basis or if I don’t go home tonight, is dangerously close to single digit! I feel like I am gradually becoming an island, slowly separating from the mainland. This is making me really, really sad. Am I over-reacting because I am upset, emotional right now? Am I on the verge of Depression? Am I acting spoiled ‘cause I know there are people out there who really are all alone in this world.

3 comments:

Katie said...

Maybe as we become parents, we move up in that heirarchy - we become the caretakers...

We lose our own caretakers, but become beloved ones of our own children.

It's a terrible transition - I am dreading it.

Anonymous said...

Zeenat, I feel so bad because we never have time to talk. I feel awful when you call and I am either making dinner or I can't hear you because of the kids. I go to bed around 9 these days so I forget to call you back. I am so sorry.I love when you send me pics of the kids.I hope you still feel like we are as close as we always have been. We are just sooo busy all the time. When the kids are out of school we are going on a cruise or the oprah show together. Love ya, Jill

Naser said...

Hmmm.. Life starts so that it can perish, we just have to get on with it.

Sorry to hear the bad news, similar things happened to me as my dad passed away 2 months ago...so I can indeed render the pain death inflicts

Anyway, Just dropped in to say that your blogging style is quite eloquent :) haven't seen too many bangalee Frauleins blogging with the same enthusiasm and jive... keep the writing going on.