Rudimentary Realizations

The color of emotional pain: grayish blue, sort of like a cloudy day sky
How I feel emotional pain: Towards the beginning, quite numb. Then gradually that grayish blue takes over my insides and stays there for a long time.
How I wish I felt emotional pain: I wish the pain would sear me to pieces in a second, and then I would stay numb for an extended period of time.